It has all been done before

Words, words, words.

We think that this is the way it works, then we quickly realize we are wrong. What have we done with our lives? What will we do with our lives? Is it time yet to compromise, shall we remain complacent, comfortable, and "okay?"

Or, do we push forward with courage, let our light be, and act as we allow the energy to flow through ourselves?

Slow is good.

Slowing Down.

It's good. 

I do not need to make grand alterations, only small alterations. I suppose maybe that is what that "don't sweat the small stuff" book meant when it exclaimed that it is ALL small stuff. The small simple pieces of existence alter the bigger picture items.

Slowing down with life is something that i have enjoyed on very rare occasions. I live my life as a speeding bullet, racing through time and moving quickly from one thing to the next. I have a desire to do EVERYTHING that life has to offer, and i often see time as wasting if i stay too long on one thing in particular. However, while i can continue to enjoy the many things that life has to offer at as fast as a pace as i will - slowing down on a micro level will actually allow me to truly experience those things even more. 

Dishes, Cooking Dinner, Bedtime Stories, Laundry, Weekends, Eating, Sex. (examples)

Rushing causes more loss than gain.

This past week i took my boys to "the movie store" (blockbuster) as a regular thing that we do to pick out a kid's movie every few days. On the way out to the car, my boys (2 and 3) walked on the small ledge separating the parking lot from the concrete. I didn't rush them to the car, i embraced the moment and encouraged them as they found how well they could balance. We were smiling and laughing and engaging and loving each other.

Its stuff like that. Slowing down to enjoy those moments. To LIVE those moments.

Time is precious - but that idea can spawn us into hurrying through things and moving forward to crunch as much as possible into the limited time we have. 

Instead i plan to move more slowly, and be here now.

Simple. Slow. Serenity.

"never attempt to correct anyone." my mother stated this to me the other night - and i like it.

although it is easier for us to see things from outside of a situation, that does not mean that we can see things in another's situation. chances are that we are going to find exactly what we need to correct in ourselves, when we attempt to correct others.

doesn't stop the fact that i dont like to see others make mistakes that i have made... but im more open to there being a place and time when speaking anything is only detrimental.

Having to rely on other people sucks.

I have control issues. There, i said it. I definitely like being in control, but it would seem that i am being placed into positions where i am utterly without control, perhaps to teach me how to deal with it better. It is awesome how things work like that.

So at the moment, i have torn up my knee - ACL and miniscus... :(  I have never had an injury that made me so immobile for so long.

open wide

Insight does not lead to change. Well, i suppose inevitably it does - but the change part is up to the person who gains the insight in the first place. If there was some type of guide book that told us exactly how to incorporate our insights, i think we'd all be pretty boring. The ease of such a thing sounds appealing, but im pretty confident we'd screw it up - in fact i think theres TONS of stuff out there that we just won't get - even if its smack dab in front of us. I think about the bible - and the vast wasteland of "understanding" that comes along with having "all the answers in written form." How could any man claim to understand the very book that ruminates on mans lack of understanding??


I was asked the question - "what does it mean if you aren't in control?"

my answer was something i pulled out of my ass (probably in order to sound like i was on top of things or more - in control... :)

but i'd have to say my real answer is simply that it means i am not in control.

Any sort of judgement i make, or expectation i have, is yet another thought that brings me closer to falling flat on my face in what i "know."

The real control is in the perception of the situation -
so why would i want things to fit in nice little boxes that i have already observed and/or experienced?

I have despised even the thought of stagnancy... and in the same breath stagnated myself with my "knowledge."


To occupy my brain space for now/ thoughts at the moment/ my current mantra...

I'm beginning to think the word "obviously" was invented by something un-human... As if we intrinsically get whatever sentiment follows.




Obliterate the obvious, and replace it with openness. What is obvious will be obliterated - and what is open... 


is...


open.

If you are spending too much time working on something, then when do you get to enjoy it? Trying is my new favorite word not to live. Try is halfway - or not even that. In fact trying for me, ended up detrimental to my living.

Flow. Im feeling that word... let it flow... not try to control.


song lyrics coming out of this? decided to look up that song i heard on the radio earlier...

The song. Cults - Abducted...

Multitasking -

This year, i got pumpkin leaf bags - fun stuff to do with the kids, cheap and a fun way to clean up the yard.